Do you have a super snuggler in your life? Maybe it’s a child, your spouse, or a pet, but if you have one you already know what I mean when I say super snuggler. Holding hands isn’t enough, laying with their leg touching yours isn’t enough. If there’s a blanket or a shirt between their skin and yours, they’ll nudge and shift their body until the fabric moves.
They just can’t get close enough and every part of them needs to be touching you. My super snuggler is Jonathan. If cuddling were an Olympic sport, this kid would win the gold medal. He wakes up for snuggles when he’s lonely. If I bring him into bed with me and wait until he’s asleep to slowly slide away, we do this kind of dance where I inch away and he inches closer. Then we dance like this until I get to the edge of the bed and give in to the sweaty baby snuggles again.
This week has been wrought with sickness in our house. Pneumonia, flu, bronchiolitis, and a stomach bug have all graced our doorstep with their nasty unwelcome presence and nobody even bothered to wipe their feet. Poor Jonathan was on the receiving end of all four illnesses. Isn’t it great when siblings share? Well, when Jonathan is sick, he takes his already super-snuggly-self into a hyper-drive of clingy goodness.
It’s exhausting; even my ergo is showing signs of tiredness. In the still of the night last night, rocking and singing to a sweet, sleepy boy, I saw a peace and comfort in that face that inexplicably melted away my exhaustion. That peace and rest can only be found one place I know.
I stopped singing and started praying. Thank you Father for this tiny boy. Forgive me for my selfishness and resentment of what he needs. Forgive me for wanting to prioritize my sleep over loving him. You’ve entrusted him to us to love and teach and raise and snuggle. Oh, these snuggles. Even though he cannot say a word, You’re already using him to teach me about my relationship with You. Even in his sleep, even when he’s sick, he instinctively knows that there is comfort in closeness. Lord, we are sick and too distant from You. Grow in me a longing to be closer to You, to snuggle in and never feel like I’m near enough, to want to cling tighter and tighter to You. You are where I find my rest. Remind me when I forget that You are the bringer of all peace and comfort. Help me become more like this little child, snuggling close as I grow.
18 The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.
19 He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them.
20 The Lord watches over all who love him,